I'm seeing tunnel vision in a world that's dark and cold
I can't believe how much I've changed since the days of old
I know
it's temporary but
I need to focus straight
I can't believe I lost control of my fate
I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out
I'm gonna win
I can't afford to blow this one

I hate myself sometimes
I love myself
I need this way of life,
because it holds me.

I hate myself sometimes
I love myself.
If contradiction's the way of life
Happiness is wealthiness is healthy

Now that I've made it through those lies and deceit,
I think what's done is done and I can't complain anymore
I am sure,
that I have found myself again it feels great
I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate.

I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out
I'm gonna win
I can't afford to blow this one

I hate myself sometimes
I love myself
I need this way of life because it holds me.

I hate myself sometimes
I love myself.
If contradiction's the way of life
Happiness is wealthiness is healthiness